Tuesday, November 4, 2008

lab layp

How would we define love? According to wikipedia Love is any of a number of emotions and experiences related to a sense of strong affection.[1] The word love can refer to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure ("I loved that meal") to intense interpersonal attraction ("I love my girlfriend"). This diversity of meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even compared to other emotional states.

So there’s a lot of definition for love. But why do we love something or someone? Why would some people die for others? Why would we spend a lot of money for something that “we love”?

One of my officemates tried to commit suicide because her boyfriend (should I say ex boyfriend) broke up with her. I may not understand it but I guess she has her reasons for not wanting to let go.

I’m trying to understand what I’m going through right now. I don’t understand why I cannot let of someone who cannot be with me. Ok, I am crazy, that I am very very sure but I can’t really figure out why I still want to be with Mr. Banker. We have been seeing each other these past few months but we definitely do not have commitment. Mr. Banker is my ex boyfriend but since we have the same circle of friends we see each other a lot and we always go out and we spend a lot of time together. Sh*t, I know I am such a bitch and this is what I hate about it. This feeling, the feeling of falling for him again. We are both not committed to other people but we know that it can never be us. I should learn how to control this feeling; I cannot stop seeing him because if I do that, it means not seeing our friends. I love my friends, next to my family of course.

This is what is causing my depression lately. My love life is such a failure. I know its pathetic. I thought I am so over him but I am so wrong.

2 comments:

Bryan Anthony the First said...

tough case huh
find something na nakakainis about him
that would make it a bit easier

woof

Anonymous said...

"We are both not committed to other people but we know that it can never be us."...ayyy..bakit?

-rio